Friday, February 4, 2011

Long hard road

Sometimes life is a long hard road. But things worth having are things worth fighting for. I really am sure Ihave my guy back, and couldnt be happier. My son is babbling so much more than he was before. My guys daughter still loves me. Life is perfect at the moment. It def wasnt easy getting here. I dont know how long it will last. But last time I took it for granted. This time I will appreciate it and try to not let go again.
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Saturday, January 15, 2011

Idiots R Us

So I don't want to go into major detail, but basically, I was dating a guy, we pretty much lived together, He left me for another girl.  We work together, all 3 of us.  But this time, the idiot did it to himself.  He pretty much told everyone we work with the mean things hes done to me, and he was bragging about it.  Of course, everyone was kind of in shock and appauled at him.  Now, he's really got nobody on his side...

Too bad for you sucker.  Now, you are most likley gonig to lose your job becasue of your position, and your girlfriend will probably lose her job, and me, I'm just sitting here laughing at your bad luck!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Complicated

Boys are so complicated sometimes. Why do they try to play hard to get? Especially after you dated them once. I seriously have known this boy for 10 years now. We dated this boy for 11 monthes. We have been broken up for 7 monthes now. Still talk. He admitted he screwed up and still loved me like 4 weeks ago now. But he wont give in. Why? Why are boys complicated?

I hung out with him today. I think he knows I still love him. So...why? Why cant he just give in? We miss eachother and love eachother. So I dont know what to do with him.

But its day 11 into the year. He is def not my first priority. My son is and always will be.
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Monday, January 10, 2011

Its snowing

It's snowing, and in all reality, I hate the snow.

Actually, lets rephrase that.  I hate the cold.

If it were like 60 degrees and snowing, that would be one thing.  I'd actually be okay with that.  But this 20 degree wheather is not okay.

The end.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Work

Does anyone else hate their job?  Because, I do.  I hate my job.  And I'm trying to get away from it.  But I dont know many other people that would work around my hours so much as my current job.  So I'm stuck at the moment.

By the end of the year I want my business liscense, and maybe a loan to open up a resale shop.  That would be more than ideal.

Friday, January 7, 2011

RIP BELLE

So my cute little mouse Belle died yesterday. Wensday he seemed fine, but i guess it was his time.

And yes, my mouse was a boy. I still have my Peppy though (other mouse) although who knows for how long.

So the new year has sucked so far but I am going to attempt to leave it all behind me now.
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Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Already an Epic Fail

So, I have already went three days without writting.  Why?  I do not know.  I just don't know.

I have just been depressed.  I need to leave the past in the past and just move on.  And that, I will do.  Starting for sure, today.  Becasue today and every day for the rest of my life, I will be independant, and not needing a boy for happiness.
EVERYTHINGS MAGIC
ANGELS AND AIRWAVES
And do you ever feel like you're alone?
And do you ever wish you'd be unknown?
I could say that I have, I could say that I have

And do you ever feel things here aren't right?
And do you ever feel the time slip by?
I can say that I have and I can say that I have

So hear this please
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly
And look for the stars as the sun goes down
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound
Everything, everything's magic

Just sit back and hold on but hold on tight
Prepare for the best and the fastest ride
And reach out your hand and I'll make you mine
Everything, everything's magic

And do you ever lay awake at night?
And do you ever told yourself, don't try
Don't try to let yourself down, don't try to let yourself down

And do you ever see yourself in love?
And do you ever take a chance, my love?
Because you know that I will, because you know that I will

So hear this please
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly
And look for the stars as the sun goes down
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound
Everything, everything's magic

Just sit back and hold on but hold on tight
Prepare for the best and the fastest ride
And reach out your hand and I'll make you mine
Everything, everything's magic, everything, everything's magic

So hear this please
And watch as your heart speeds up endlessly
And look for the stars as the sun goes down
Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound
Everything, everything's magic

Just sit back and hold on, but hold on tight
Prepare for the best and the fastest ride
And reach out your hand and I'll make you mine
Everything, everything's magic

Saturday, January 1, 2011

New Year, New Beginnings...

So, I got my stuff back from Jeff today.  At work all day I was okay.  But after work when he gave me my stuff back, it was hard.  Really hard.  I cant explain it.  I was falling hard.  But he cant help he didnt feel the same.  Honestly, I think he wishes he felt the same.  Or so, I will let myself believe.  Becasue in all reality, we could of been pretty freaking awesome together, and taken on the world, just me and him. 

But thats so last year.  This is a new year.  This is me, I'm going to be single.  He's just a boy.  And I deserve so much better than that.

Hope everyone had a good New Years Eve.  Mine was a bit boreing, but atleast I didn't spend it alone like I thought I would.

Heres to the Night
Eve 6

So denied so I lied are you the now or never kind
In a day and a day love I'm gonna be gone for good again
Are you willing to be had are you cool with just tonight
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Put your name on the line along with place and time
Wanna stay not to go I wanna ditch the logical
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

All my time is froze in motion
Can't I stay an hour or two or more
Don't let me let you go
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon